Throughout high school I kept a blog daily, but never really shared it with anyone. I've been going back to see what was important to me all those years. My last entry was January 9th, 2007. This is what I wrote:

"i hear all these love songs speaking of what i yearn for. everyday i think of a new quality i want in a mate and it's seemingly impossible to find them all in one body cavity. i'm the happiest i've ever been in my life. things are so wonderful for me. but why do i yearn for you? and who are you? i'm growing more and more impatient each day. i want you to come up to me and tell me i'm beautiful. please don't be intoxicated, it's only more complicated. i need someone with passion, who puts others first and isn't consumed by selfish or addicting behavior. i want you to lay beside me, our bodies intwined perfectly and be able to communicate without speaking. i want you to love music and understand it's like air to me. i want your laugh to be loud and often. your smile one that i see in your eyes first, before your lips. i want you to have a desire to travel the world with me. skeletons are just that; something of the past. someone who can stand in the rain. i hope you like tea."

I feel like I've found those qualities and more that I didn't know I needed or desired in Kevin. He is such a blessing.